It's Hard to Ask for Help - But, I'm Asking.

This is a hard post to write as my pride gets the best of me.  Amy doesn't know I'm doing this.  She hasn't been feeling well this last week but at least she is not in the hospital!  Days are hard - I have a whole new respect and empathy for those living with a disease such as this.  As most of you know who read this blog, we had to leave our home in Joshua Tree quickly after Amy was hospitalized in Arkansas because we needed to be close to the hospital.  Two of our dogs are at a friend's home, the chickens are fostered out and my horse Mickey is at a friend's house.  We have Troy, the Chihuahua who is Amy's 24/7 care giver!  Since returning to San Diego a few months ago, we have been staying at a friend's house since we can't yet afford to rent our own place.  Amy is not able to work and gets limited income from disability from her cancer.   My business is growing but not where I want it to be.  I had to close my private practice in Joshua Tree and start my private practice up in San Diego again.  It's definitely climbing, but I expect I need another 2 or 3 months until it's where I can sustain us.  Amy needs a home.  I'm sure you can imagine what it's like to have stage 4 cancer while living in a bedroom in somebody else's home.  All of our belongings are in our shop in Joshua Tree and our life is all spread out.  We live with what we can put in the car.  Amy needs a home to have her dogs with her, her belongings and needs to have that peace and serenity that only home can bring.  I have thought of everything I can to rent a place, but I simply can't come up with the money until my business has grown more. 

So, I'm asking for support.  I know it's a long shot.  But, I see causes out there all the time so I figured it's worth a try.  I'm not asking for financial help to squander money.  We live very simply.  This is also short term.  Amy is very fragile and I don't know what could happen from a day to day basis.  But, I so want to give her a place she feels comfortable through all of this.  I can't believe we don't even have a rental of our own while she is so sick.  There is a widget below with the black ribbon for melanoma and a gold "give" button.  Click on "give".

If you can find any spare money and would consider making a donation, it will go directly to finding us a home ASAP.  There is a potential home we are going to look at and they will even let us have our 3 dogs.  But, I can't pull it all together financially.  Would you consider helping us?  Anything would help.  I would never ask this for myself, but it breaks my heart to see Amy not have the basics of what anyone should have while going through this.  There is a widget with black melanoma ribon to donate below.  You can also copy this widget to put on your own blog if you feel inclined.  Please feel free to pass the word on about this page! 

I think I've said enough.  I'll just hope for the best, say a prayer and see what happens.  Thank you so much.  And if you live in or near San Diego and can't help financially, but have other creative ways to help, let me know.  Even if you have no money to support or choose not to, your words of encouragement are appreciated.

*UPDATE* An incredibly generous friend from my past just gave me word that she would MATCH EVERY DOLLAR up to $2500 raised and that is our goal.  What started out as a bleak shot in the dark had really turned into something incredible.   In addition to that, another friend from the past who works with finances is going to sit down with me and look at our financial picture and see if there is anything we can cut out to make sure that I will be okay financially regardless of what happens after this.  I am more than half way to my goal and please help make this happen!  Between the funds and financial planning, and, despite what we're going through, I feel blessed by good friends and the kindness of strangers.